Cleansing my Mind by Cleaning my Home

 To find inner peace, first you need to find a peaceful space - you need to build a peaceful place.

One certainty about life is that the journey is not on a steady road. There are ups and downs, straight roads as well as curves, smooth rides at times, while difficult trails the other. And that certainty of the uncertainty is what makes life beautiful. Regardless of this universal acceptance, hard times test our spirits. We wear a smile in public, but deep down doubts creep into our hearts.

Let me be honest here. My life has been a mess for some time now. I realise this is not how I used to be. This is not how my life used to be. I used to be a very sorted guy. Not always, but from around the time I completed my bachelors. I have heard from friends’ friends acknowledging how sorted my life was. Friends often complimented me for the clarity in my goals, activities and everything that I did. 

And now? Things have changed. How? I wondered. How did things start falling apart? Let alone the external things which are not all under my control. But things in my own hands gradually slipped out. I started to play easy and dragged my limbs back into the comfort zone. Delaying until the last hour, getting impunctual, losing my cool - I was getting messier.

It did not happen in a day. Not in a week, a month or a year. Things slipped away from my control slow enough to bother me. Dejected after a loss I took a break from the patterned life. I skipped initially and then found excuses to not being able to get back on track. I skipped the morning routine because I had a lot of important work to do. I had too many responsibilities to pursue my dreams. I was still excelling in the tasks I completed. However, in a couple of years I realised that my efficiency was decreasing. It happened because I was not being me. I was postponing the real me with excuses, indiscipline and laziness. 

Now that I realise where it went wrong, I am optimistic of my bounce back. I admit I made mistakes. But, amidst all the mess, the best thing is that I have already cleared the mess once, in my early twenties. I know what it takes to be a sorted guy.

Therefore, I have started with sorting my home. I have been living in a cluttered space for over two years. Enough of it now. To cleanse the mind, first I need a clean environment. I will clean up the house before the coming week starts. 

I know it will not get me out of my problems magically. But it has the power to shift my mindset. Waking up in a sorted house will give me energy to start my day on a positive note and fill me with hope to pursue the life of my dreams. And to write it down, here, is giving myself a clear direction. To share it in public is for the commitment to get it done. See you next week.